my grandpa

my grandpa, jess c. ramirez {feb 2, 1927-sept 6, 2011}

the phone rang so early in the morning that i just flew out of bed and knew it was going to be my mom with bad news. i can not believe that you are gone. i can hear your voice. i miss you so much already. i am not good with remembering birthdays but i have always known that your birthday was on groundhogs day. every year…no matter where i was living…i was sure to call my grandpa on his birthday. i love that you were missing your pinky finger. i will always remember the trips to glamis, canada, and twenty feet. i can remember it like it was yesterday when you lived in hungry valley and i used to play with the tumble weeds and ride the atc’s. i just want to go back to that time right now and hug you. i will never forget when i got a wallet from the gift store in the calgary tower and you asked if i had any money in it. of course i didn’t so you gave me $5.00. it seemed like a hundred back then. i loved listening to your stories. i love how you loved grandma. i miss you. so much. i remember when you asked me if i go to church anymore and when i said no, you told me i would be hanging on the last rung of the ladder to get to heaven. i’m not worried grandpa because i know you will be there to pull me up. i love you.

24 Comments ( Reply )

  1. summer
    Sep 07, 2011 @ 9:27 pm

    i am so sorry love….so sorry.

    i adore you and this post.

  2. Arjun Chandrasekhar
    Sep 07, 2011 @ 9:31 pm

    awwwwwwwww jen! this is beautiful!!! i actually started tearing up from reading this! i am so sorry for your loss – when i lost my grandmother it was devastating, and i still think about and miss her every second of my life. i can’t imagine how sad this must be, and my thoughts and prayers are with you. i am sure he is smiling on you from above and would be so proud to read this tribute!

  3. Anna
    Sep 07, 2011 @ 9:38 pm

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss Jenn. Grandparents are one of earths greatest treasures and they leave a massive gap in our lives when they’re gone – no words help in times like this, but just know I’m thinking of you. I lost my Pop 2 weeks ago and although I don’t believe time can heal all wounds, it does make it hurt a little less. lots of love and kind thoughts.

    Anna xx

  4. Margara
    Sep 07, 2011 @ 10:40 pm

    I am so so sorry for your loss. You and your
    family are in my prayers *hugs*

  5. Neris
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 1:33 am

    I’m so sorry Jenn! It is so hard to lose somebody we love 🙁 I’ll be thinking of you and your family! And I’m sure he’d be so proud if he read this post; it made me cry 🙁

    Much love,


  6. Amber from Real Girl Glam
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 5:02 am

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Thank you for sharing these special memories with us. He sounds like such a special man.

  7. Danielle Spradlin
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 6:57 am

    I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It is so hard losing someone as important as a grandparent. Just remember all the great memories and the good times you have had with him. Your tribute painted a perfect picture of how wonderful your grandpa was. Stay strong. Lots of hugs. And my prayers are with you and your family.

  8. Leanne
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 7:20 am

    I’m so sorry for your lose! I’ll keep you my prays!

  9. Alysson
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 7:47 am

    I am so so sorry to hear of your loss! You’ll be in my prayers today! XO

  10. My Dressy Ways
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 8:02 am

    Awwwww sweetie. Hugs and kisses.

  11. Teri
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 8:22 am

    So sorry about your loss. Teri

  12. Heather @ Family Friendly Frugality
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 8:26 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. Your grandpa sounds like a great man.

  13. No Guilt Fashion
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 9:01 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.

  14. xxayeexx
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 9:27 am

    Sorry for your loss. Sending my condolences to you and your family.

  15. the Blah Blah Blahger
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 9:56 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss, sweet girl!

  16. Hotsy Malone
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 10:10 am

    Very sorry to hear about the passing of your Grandpa. Loved his picture, he looked like a sweet soul. My prayers are with you and your family.

  17. Christine
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 12:42 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss – know that he is smiling down on you now.

  18. Heather G.
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 4:31 pm

    🙁 I’m so sorry about your loss!

  19. foodfashionandflow
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 5:16 pm

    I am so sorry. My prayers are with you

  20. Shea
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 6:51 pm

    I’m so sorry for your loss, and I loved the beautiful words you wrote. I’ll be thinking of you and your family.

  21. ...love Maegan
    Sep 08, 2011 @ 10:05 pm

    awe, this is really sweet, and what an amazing photo. I’m so sorry for the loss of your Grandpa, as he was clearly a special man. I hope you find peace with it soon.

  22. Penny Pincher Fashion
    Sep 09, 2011 @ 4:05 pm

    Brought me to tears – sorry for your loss!

  23. lisa
    Sep 09, 2011 @ 4:07 pm

    i’m so sorry for your loss.

  24. aliciav
    Sep 15, 2011 @ 9:46 pm

    Oh …What you wrote is so sweet…This is the first time I read your blog as it was from a link from “Cashmere and cupcakes”and I am sorry for your loss. I know how you must feel I lost my grandmom that practically raised me last year too. You honor him by speaking so sweetly and so kind about him that lets everyone know what a fine man he was.